Passepertout

Not sure if today is good or bad yet. Been struggling with the psychological aspects of all this lately, it all seems to be coming down on top of me a bit. Will speak to the whole team at the hospital Lon Monday to see where we are at. I understand that the huge amount of morphine that I'm on can make you depressed so it's something that we need to sort out because it's not fair on Keeley.

I think the big thing is that I keep ticking off progress boxes but new negative boxes keep popping up to cancel them out. This week it has been losing most of my ability to swallow anything but the tiniest drop of water whe a couple of weeks ago I was drinking normally and beginning to eat reddy brek. Just seems like a big step backwards.

Anyway, we will be at hospital on Monday and get some things sorted out.

Apologies for the tone of this blog but I think it only works if I'm being honest, hopefully just writing about it will help things.

Grace is back from York having had a great 5 days, and if I feel up to it we are going to the New Vic this afternoon to see Around the World in 80 days, so things aren't all bad.